A New Self-Discovery of Mine
For sure everyone has a goal of discovering something new about him everyday. You know, I got this new discovery about myself today. This has already existed in me before, anyway, that I have overlooked.
I noticed that if I did not have anything accomplished in a day, I feel so unsatisfied, and at times, it makes me sad. I know some people experience the same thing. Unlike others who love laying themselves until afternoon, doing nothing but sleeping, I can’t take to have been spending a whole day not being productive. Poor me, golden times are wasted and it did not and would not benefit me at all.
In this new environment I am in, the coldness of the weather has set me to laziness and idle dreaming. It made me want to lay down and think of so many things. And I could honestly say that it sometimes set my ass on a chair, plug in the computer and do my works in the internet. A day has passed and I didn’t notice it. I should have done more important things than that.
For the past two months, I noticed that I was doing the same things repeatedly. I became unhappy with it. My schedule was disorganized. My mind likewise was disorganized. It was not the first time that I experienced having trouble with myself though. In the past, I had a lot of struggles fighting with myself–my emotions, my laziness, my confusions, my paranoia. Whenever I get tired of myself, I really had to start all over again.
Today, I’m starting over again. I never learned my lessons until I never knew my weaknesses. In life, there should be consistency; oftentimes, I fail to do it. It’s my waterloo that when I start something, I tend to stop or not finish it whenever there are unexpected or expected changes. But I thank God that I always realize everything and i really have the sense of moving on. With that, I can go back to where I started and continue the things that I used to do.
For me, making my day sensible starts with talking to God. He has already set His wonderful plans for me and I should know it through the Word. Then I believe everything follows and becomes successful. Then it becomes complete when I work this day through sharing my heart, my smile, my love and my life to other people. I love to help and serve.. inspire and motivate.. I like to do my tasks well. That’s how I can say this day was spent wisely. I really do need of companions, spiritual partners, family, advisers, friends.. My heart needs people who will take care of it by merely supplying its needs like love, care, appreciation, attention.. Needing someone to lean on and an ear to hear my stories.
Today, I can say I’m happy. I thanked the Lord, laughed with friends, shared stories with family members, helped my sister, kissed my mom, took my knowledge test for driving (I didn’t pass though.. I’ll take the re-test.. I’ll talk about that later.. hehe), accomplished something and shared my heart through this.
Tonight I can sleep smiling with satisfaction. Thank you, Lord, for this new self-discovery of mine! 
My Grand Life Vacation
Today, I found myself awoke the whole night until dawn. I don’t know what’s this called. Maybe it’s the opposite of jet log, or whatsoever; I don’t care 
In the Philippines I used to sleep at 10-11 pm, having been settled for my prayer and devotion, and then wake up at 4 am, doing the same thing. And then suddenly, when I moved here, everything has changed. Maybe I just want to write now…
I can say that as my year ended, all my sufferings on the year 2008 ended too. (Did you notice that? Oh, you did?) Wow! This is really what we call “Imari, The Champion; The Winner; The Overcomer.” I really don’t like to boast, but please, do give me a chance to get proud for a moment. Of course I won’t boast myself, but instead, I’m gonna boast the greatness of God in my life! I’m not here if it’s not by God. (Of course, much thanks to people who supported me all the way). I don’t know, but, I’m much more excited with my life–on how I will be used mightily and greatly by Him. I can smell the sweet aroma of my good success. Oh, by the way, I told a while ago that everything here is new–the environment, the people, the weather, the foods, everything is new! But, I love it here, you know. I feel comfortable. I like it when my brother and I go driving anywhere, and we used to go to Starbucks and sip coffees, and when my mom and sis go shopping… oh, I just love Washington! And also, it’s fun to meet new people and enter into a new school. It’s really fun! hahahaha… (sorry, I can’t help it.,)
I think this is already God’s rewards to me. This is a time for me to relax and rest for a while… get rid from crying, struggles and problems… like saying, “Imay, my cute and wonderful princess, this is your grand life vacation! Enjoy my promised USA first. Just get ready for the 2009 trials I’m gonna give you!” But maybe later or tomorrow, He’s going to send me to another battles… battles that will make me even stronger in spirit. “Yah, Dad, I’m enjoying! Go! I’m excited!” (I do miss crying because of pain… heheheh… and then get happy after overcoming it…)
*P.S: I just received a promised laptop from my brother last 30th… he said that Sony is better than Apple.. (ok, I don’t want to boast… hahahah.. God just answered my wishes for my christmas and bday! more than I asked Him) Though I haven’t receive it yet, at least I got a promise. But the most important gift that He gave me was the harvested souls of the members of my family. It’s the most beautiful gift I received before and after my bday, more than any material things…
