The Realness of God’s Promises
Do you still remember what I posted last September about God’s promise to me of USA? If you have not yet read it, or if you just want to refresh it, then you are free to read it now: Conquest of the USA Promised. The text gave a rhema on me.
I just realized how real God is! He is real! He is more real than I am. He is more real than the one reading this. You know, I am now here in the promised land–USA, the land of milk and honey… hehehe… I thought only the Israelites in the bible could ever experience something like this, but now, it was just proven that I too, who has received plenty of promises from the Lord, am going to testify how He made my life and brought me here now. I had lots of hardships on waiting for my visa and departure, but when I started trusting Him and endured, my struggles became simple (not easy) and played as challenges that are to be overcame. When I got my visa, I never had a hard time; from how I will get my fare, up to my checking-in to the airport and into traveling from Manila to Seoul to Seattle, and until my arrival to the US land. I never got nervous (promise!), because I know that God will walk, speak and move for me. Overall, my travel was fine and simple yet exciting. His angel really is helping me.
And now, I am really really really excited. Welcome to America! Welcome to a new battlefield! Jesus is my commander. He’s gonna lead me. (I know!)
Arrival of the Promised Visa
December 17, 2008 was the day of the arrival of the promised visa. At last, after a long wait, it now came to an end.
I wonder if I stopped praying. I wonder if I blamed God for everything terrible that happened to me few months ago. Then maybe I’m not as thankful as now, and maybe my spirit did not grow like this. I’m one of the most joyful and most thankful persons in the world. The moment I spoke to God that “Lord, I need my visa no more. I don’t need my visa now. I need You!”, you know what, He’s such a lover. I heard Him saying, “Child, because you said that, I’m giving you my promised visa. It won’t take very long! It’s my promise, remember?” He’s the most faithful I have known! I really love Him and I can’t help, but, you know, to fall to my knees. I really can’t imagine how I will fight the battle of life without Him. He’s truly my greatest lover and with that, I’m giving my greatest offering—my life.
I know I will meet more sufferings in the future that will make me even stronger, godlier and more wonderful in the eyes of God. But I shall always remember too that midst the darkness, the Lord provides light and if He has already rescued me in the past, then He’s gonna save me until the end. Always will I remember how He met all my needs so again, there’s no reason for me not to trust Him.
Because of all these tests of faith, God and I were closer and more intimate. I pray that God will give me a humble heart the moment I receive His promised success in my life. Thanks, Jesus! 
Macbook!!!!!
6th week and the visa has not yet arrived. Well, I wouldn’t care! hahahaha… Today, I was just thinking that I need my visa no more (but it doesn’t mean I’m losing hope… I’m still praying so hard). I mean, there is something greater I need now. And I need God more than anything. I wouldn’t care what other people will say about me. I wouldn’t mind about my schooling. So what if I missed the first sem? I’m still enjoying my stay here at home. This is part of God’s plan, I know. I don’t have an evidence that there will be great things that God will do in my life, and I don’t have anything to show now to prove that God will bring me to wonderful places and He will make me something extraordinary and influential (and famous! hahaha…), but I have here my only evidence—my faith.
And today, God reawaken my desire for a macbook by saying “Ask and you will receive.” Some time in our Sunday school, our pastor told us not to be ashamed to ask God of anything. After all, He is our Father and as a child, I can ask anything from Him! So now, Lord, Awesome Daddy, I know this will be very civil… I’m asking for a macbook. Hahahaha… Give it to me whenever I am truly ready. And I’ll keep on praying that I wouldn’t put my heart to everything you will give to me because anytime, You can take it from me. Instead, I’ll put my heart to You and anytime You will ask me to surrender it (the mac book), then I will be ready to give it someone that Your Spirit will lead.
Macbook, Lord! hahahaha…
When My Life Seems Dark…
And God said, “Let there be light”, and there was light. Genesis 1:3
For almost two years of being a Christian, things happen today to me are to be considered as my greatest tribulations. I’m currently at the state of the dark night of my soul. Life seems dark. During the night, it’s quiter, it’s lonelier and it’s longer. But in quietness and solitude, there I could hear the voice of God encouraging me and reminding me that He is not only my God, but my Father as well, and He assures that in the end, I’ll win over these.
The darkness is having a significance in my life now. It stands for all the struggles I am having now; temptations, trials, adversities and obstacles. Before I don’t know how to appreciate problems, but as I completely surrender my life to Him, I’m becoming stronger in spirit and learning to really depend unto Him. I just thought: How could I appreciate life if I’m always happy? I’m glad that when my life seems dark, there I could have the desire to find light… and declare light just as God declared light in the beginning.
And that light is just my faith to Jesus. No more doubts, no more fear and stumbleness..but only Jesus. And now, let there be light in my life. I’m so blessed! 
Wait… Serve… Deliver…
(Tuesday, November 10, 2008, at 11:30 pm. Si Imay, natutulog na at ginising ni Barbie)
Barbie: May! Nagtext na sa akin ang Delbros Deliveries. Ipapadala na daw nila ang visa ko kasi na-forward na sa kanila ng US embassy.
Imay: (naantok pa pero biglang nagising sa sinabi ng kapatid) Talaga? (lumabas ng kwarto at nakipag-usap sa mga ateng gising pa. Biglang may naramdamang takot sa puso.)
Barbie: Bakit sa’yo wala pa?
Imay: Di ko alam, Barbs…
(Saka itong si demonyo, biglang nang-asar sa kanya, ginamit pa si Manang Mac nya)
Manang Mac: (kay Barbie) Barbs, stay ka lang dito sa bahay ok. (kay Imay) Eh yung visa mo, May, nasaan? (pa-sarcastic na pagsabi)
Imay: May reason ang lahat. (kay demonyo) Hoy, demonyo, umalis ka nga sa tabi ng ate ko. (nagtungo sa kwarto at kinausap ang Diyos)
(Napahiga sya at nawala ang kanyang antok. Biglang naiyak…)
Imay: (kausap si Lord) Lord, ano pong problema? Ano po ang gusto nyong matutunan ko? Ano po ang reasons why You still want me to stay any longer? Parang mas mauuna pa po sa akin si Barbie ah. (iyak) Magde-December na po, Daddy… huhuhu… yung promise nyo po sa akin… huhuhu…
Jesus: I know, my princess. Just wait me…
Imay: Thank you, but, how long, my Lord?
Jesus: Just serve me… I let you experience all these things for your spiritual growth. I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Imay: I’m afraid.
Jesus: Fear not, my beloved princess, for I am with you. Your reward shall be very great. (Genesis 15:1) Tama na… heto na ang panyo… mahal kita…
Imay: Salamat, huh? I must not be afraid. “All things work together for good for those who love you”, sabi mo nga sa Romans 8:28. Lahat ng failures na nararanasan ko ngayon is a part of Your great plans. Mahal din kita. (sabay kuha ng panyo at inilabas ang uhog )
Jesus: Just wait and serve me… and I will soon deliver you from all these troubles. Basta I love you child. Patience lang… Sige, tulog ka na. Maaga pa tayong mag-uusap bukas.
Imay: (nagpunas ulit ng panyo kasi dumugo ang ilong dahil sa pag-i-Inggles ni Jesus… hehehehe lol)
(Si Imay, nakatulog nang nakangiti… )
