My First Day Studying In A US School..
My first day of class was not that bad and not that good either. The subject we had today was Sociology from 5pm to 10 pm. You may consider this as a boring one because of the schedule. But personally, I found it okay to attend such sked since it’s just every Mondays and I am with my elder sister, Barbie.
Ok. I didn’t really had that wonderful night on my first class because I was like having a severe headache since morning and it became even at its worst an hour before our dismissal. And another thing that made me a little bit frustrated was when our prof assigned our group teams and we have a leader who is… grrrr, I don’t know. I am honestly stressed out and frustrated right now. I’ve seen that the other groups were really good and I felt a little bit inferior (although I was shown with confidence and participation during the class). We will be making reports and presentations, meeting during Thursdays and compiling quizzes and assignments together. I don’t know how I’ll work with my groupmates (except with my ate, of course) when I found no initiative on my leader, most especially. But since this is “Sociology” class, I have to. Well, if she can’t start it, I will. Now I’m starting to feel the what you call, a cultural shock, particularly on the educational system (Men, I never felt this way since I got here in US… I mean, you know, the cultural shock.. not at all..)
I’ve told my mom and bro about these things. Of course, I didn’t receive any advice but to be courageous on facing this great challenge. They said that at first it was not not easy but as we go through, it will be easier if we will really be serious with it.
Gosh, I really need to study so hard. I don’t want to end very frustrated just because I did not excel in class or what. I’m looking forward of finding ways on how to improve my study habits and my dealing with other students and my professors. Maybe I need counseling and more advices from another students who became successful with their studies.
I need more CONFIDENCE right now and more and more and more knowledge! It’s too early to get frustrated. hehe..
My Life’s Update
Hey y’all!
It’s almost the end of the month and I haven’t blogged for so many weeks. Well, I just took my break for blog. Sometimes, I just became lazy sharing, although there were things that I should have shared to you.
Well, this month, aside from passing my permit to drive and starting my driving lesson, I also enrolled for school. Yes, I’m starting a new chapter of my school life here in America on the 6th of April. Hope everything gets ok. Surely it will. 
My March Loveliness
My friends keep on asking me how I am now and what are the things I am expecting. Well, things are getting harder but we’re still fine. We have so many problems when it comes to our finances. My mom needs to pay a lot! heheh.. but it’s ok. We know that we’ll get through with all of these. and besides, even if sometimes we run out of money, we’re investing for our education.
Of course my main focus right now is my back to school. We (with my sister) planned to start in a community college then after two or three quarters, we’re transferring in a university. Mom is really supportive to us which makes us so blessed. My brother is graduating his nursing degree on June 14 and we hope for him to pass his NCLEX test after two or three weeks of his gra
duation. In addition to that, we plan to buy a new house when he graduates (and probably move in a new city..depends..) so I’m really looking forward to a lot of things.
Uhhm, what else? Ah! Last March 28 was my third month here in US. Ahihihi! Exciting!
Ok, too much for that. I’m tired. I’ll update you on the next days, ok? Bye!
P.S: I shfted my course from political science to psychology.. for real! 
Pray for me!
A New Self-Discovery of Mine
For sure everyone has a goal of discovering something new about him everyday. You know, I got this new discovery about myself today. This has already existed in me before, anyway, that I have overlooked.
I noticed that if I did not have anything accomplished in a day, I feel so unsatisfied, and at times, it makes me sad. I know some people experience the same thing. Unlike others who love laying themselves until afternoon, doing nothing but sleeping, I can’t take to have been spending a whole day not being productive. Poor me, golden times are wasted and it did not and would not benefit me at all.
In this new environment I am in, the coldness of the weather has set me to laziness and idle dreaming. It made me want to lay down and think of so many things. And I could honestly say that it sometimes set my ass on a chair, plug in the computer and do my works in the internet. A day has passed and I didn’t notice it. I should have done more important things than that.
For the past two months, I noticed that I was doing the same things repeatedly. I became unhappy with it. My schedule was disorganized. My mind likewise was disorganized. It was not the first time that I experienced having trouble with myself though. In the past, I had a lot of struggles fighting with myself–my emotions, my laziness, my confusions, my paranoia. Whenever I get tired of myself, I really had to start all over again.
Today, I’m starting over again. I never learned my lessons until I never knew my weaknesses. In life, there should be consistency; oftentimes, I fail to do it. It’s my waterloo that when I start something, I tend to stop or not finish it whenever there are unexpected or expected changes. But I thank God that I always realize everything and i really have the sense of moving on. With that, I can go back to where I started and continue the things that I used to do.
For me, making my day sensible starts with talking to God. He has already set His wonderful plans for me and I should know it through the Word. Then I believe everything follows and becomes successful. Then it becomes complete when I work this day through sharing my heart, my smile, my love and my life to other people. I love to help and serve.. inspire and motivate.. I like to do my tasks well. That’s how I can say this day was spent wisely. I really do need of companions, spiritual partners, family, advisers, friends.. My heart needs people who will take care of it by merely supplying its needs like love, care, appreciation, attention.. Needing someone to lean on and an ear to hear my stories.
Today, I can say I’m happy. I thanked the Lord, laughed with friends, shared stories with family members, helped my sister, kissed my mom, took my knowledge test for driving (I didn’t pass though.. I’ll take the re-test.. I’ll talk about that later.. hehe), accomplished something and shared my heart through this.
Tonight I can sleep smiling with satisfaction. Thank you, Lord, for this new self-discovery of mine!
