Confused, Disorganized and Worried…
Please excuse my article for I’ve been internalizing on how I’m gonna organize this and how I’m gonna express myself after not blogging for a long time. For the past weeks, I just found my thoughts really perplexing that sometimes made me upset. I just could not express myself–on how to say the proper words and turn my emotions into writings… I don’t know… Letting others know what I feel seemed to be necessity for me.
Maybe I could start it by saying I’m confused, disorganized and worried. Then after that, I could figure out and tell you what makes me confused, disorganized and worried.
Confused.. because.. I don’t know.. I’m just confused. I don’t know why I’m confused! I get easily confused! I don’t know how I’m gonna deal with it today, but I think my mind needs a lot of rests.
Disorganized… lately, I’ve been having troubles about my school and life (i mean, not at all..) Like when it comes to how I’m gonna do my assignments, reports and term papers, I just don’t know where to start, what’s the first thing to do.. (although I finish them on time, I tend to cram and practice last-minute.. Sometimes, I know how to start a thing but I don’t know how to continue it.. or I don’t know to start and end it, but I know what to do at the middle of it..
Worried… worried if I’m gonna do it or not? Am I gonna perform well in class? am I gonna comply all the requirements? I’m so worried at this time.
Mom said that I should not be taking a psychology major because like what I just told her tonight, “I’m having disorganized thoughts. I tend to make simple things complicated that put so much stress in me.”
I’m still trying to encourage and tell myself to become positive all the time. But really, encouragement of one’s self is not enough. My family is also really helpful for me not to give up… like everyday, they tell me I’m gonna get through my with problems I’m experiencing in school …
Checking my own status, I think the most important thing that I’m lacking right now is the wisdom from God to keep me on the right track…
Lord, help me.. I’m confused, disorganized and worried.. I’m sorry.. 
Confused,Disorganized and Worried…How heck is that? I’ve been experiencing those same emotions for the past few weeks..I feel so depressed and upset..bout s mga ngyayari at di ngyayari s life ko….maybe becoz i haven’t feel God’s presence in my life now..pkiramdam ko ang layo ko s kanya.And I don’t know kung pano ako muling mpplapit s knya I’m in search for God pro di ko sya masumpungan..maybe you can help me find Him and reconcile with Him..Gusto ko mramdman muli ung kpayapaan n ngmumula s kanya..thanks my friend..keep safe and God bless you!
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